I want to make things right. I need no promises but assurance. Tearing oneself to sleep might be the only remedy that’s left, that I can find now.. sigh..

Breaking up with someone you care about is one of the toughest decisions any of us will ever have to go through. Dealing with the pain and heart break is never easy. Now my time have come.. I have to go through all this by myself.. I should learn to let you go now.. So much things left unsaid, but what can i do.. thanks for everything.. Maybe I'm just not worth it afterall..



what is love........... I've been holding on to it...... It's just all my fault, I cant let it go earlier..... I just cant make myself do it...... that's why you have more unhappiness you dont deserved to have..... I'm sorry... but I've did what i could.. but.... hais....

bye

~Blissful Moments~ @10:39 PM

Musing

A Journey I've been walking alone now.. It's just me alone now..



Who am I..

~Blissful Moments~ @10:32 PM

I Wanna

Wanna stay to take your hand and walk with you everyday;

Wanna listen when you need to talk;

Wanna share your worries when they come;

Wanna help you face your fears;

Wanna stand by you, each hill you have to climb;

Wanna take your hand and face the world together;

Wanna live each day with you;

Wanna be here for you;

Wanna go the extra mile for you;

Thought things will be sweet, heart will be touched, warmth to be felt;

Only if only;

They said, fairytale is fiction;

Presence became a burden;

Persistence became a nuisance;

Absence can bring you comfort;

Distraction is my only remedy;

Perhaps I've only myself to blame;

For not setting you free;

For not independent enough;

Because maybe that's the only correct way;

To Love.

Self hug,
Goodnight Blog , Goodnight Cal.

~Blissful Moments~ @9:35 PM

~Blissful Moments~ @1:49 AM

1 week of break till sch starts..

Finally Last Week, zhuangzhuang's internship had ended..
which also means zhuang's new school semester is around the corner.. But it never stop dearie being *busy*

Recently, zhanzhan has been feeling more emotional than b4..*sigh* lotsa of things happened
I does not have the courage to expect anything.. like now.. Meeting me was seldom in your plan..
If so, it's most of time because I requested to.

IT seems like or rather it's becoming a fact as day past:

Our

- no. of meeting/outing is lesser
- duration spent is shorter
- joy/fun is becoming stress/time sacrificing
- type of meeting is restricted to mostly just having meals.. (our last 4 outings are just having lunch/dinner)
- intention to meet up declined too

Perhaps those are some ingredients that made me moody these days.. I don't want to think.. My head hurts!*

Love is not measured by time you said.
Love does'nt need constant presence/effort you said.
Love made you stress over time you felt.
Love isnt everything in life you think &
I don't understand you, you mentioned.

I listened...

Love is becoming a stranger to me - it seems like someone whom I barely know..
I need a dummy, to listen to what my heart is trying to say.. understand how I feel..

I hid myself..

My heart cried . not once.


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Cheering myself up..

~Blissful Moments~ @6:37 PM

A Day

Who, Why, How..
"A Qns so commonly used.. A mystery no one knew.."

Today zhuangzhuang & zhanzhan supposed to meet but never be.
They had a small tiff only turned to be ugly.
Seems like a tickling bomb reached its zeroed time.
-heartbroken-
-------------------------------------------------------------
-Rash Act
-Harsh Talking
-Confess
-Truth
-Debating/Arguments ... came shortly

Decision made may regret. A Journey went through may be missed.

How do we ended up here I'm asking.
Escape you might want to call it. But is it.

He had only a dream. A dream "so near yet so far".. "Ups & Downs".. made our heart unknowingly whispered to each other, the phrase downstairs..

*I want to be with you forever*

Only hoping

It comes true..

~Blissful Moments~ @2:00 AM